Sunday, April 13, 2014

Get Neutral or Opt out

Neutral, the first time I came across this word was when I was learning chemistry, In  the reaction where the substances are very less reactive or  does not participate in the reaction at all  then we moved on with the atomic structure where we learned about the particles neither positive nor negative, the Neutrons, and then came the neutral state for bike riding where it was necessary to be neutral before starting or at various intervals. When I apply all such phenomenon in real life. The neutral state can play a very crucial and decisive role for an individual’s life. If you are socially active and mingle with all, it requires you to be neutral at some point of time especially when you try to act as a connecting link.  But at times getting neutral can hurt people you are attached to, if you share an intense relationship with them and they want you to be on their side when they need someone to back them up and that very moment you opt out, opt out to show any support or fight back, it really makes a big difference in the relations and I have felt that, Well I have opted myself out at various circumstances due to my inability I have mentioned it before too. Some time I just could not satisfy my inner conscious. Putting neutral at times indicates that you do not have enough courage to go though and that’s why you opt out but sometimes getting neutral takes a hell of a courage to stay stiff and does not allow any driving force to take you away.
For past five years the month of April goes very crucial, as somewhere it hides what the situations going to be like for next session. We get new classes, new students and sometimes new books too, the state of mind remains between the sorrows of the left students and the happiness of the new ones however this year the scenario changed a bit as I got the opportunity to be a class teacher, I am quite excited to take up this role; it will be a different kind of experience all together. My mind has already started planning different ways out how can I make myself compatible to the role of a class teacher and most importantly make my class better. However with April come another game changing moment when It is decided whether to continue or not with the job. I have been preparing myself for five years to continue one way or the other  But unlike other times I don’t know why this time I feel like it’s the time once again to opt out and move on, move and explore other areas as the life goes one dimensional and at times doesn’t seem worthwhile, I don’t know what is the right time to opt out but before I make a decision once again I want my master to take up the final call and let me chose what is best for me and for others.

Adios!