Neutral, the first time I came
across this word was when I was learning chemistry, In the reaction where the substances are very
less reactive or does not participate in
the reaction at all then we moved on
with the atomic structure where we learned about the particles neither positive
nor negative, the Neutrons, and then came the neutral state for bike riding
where it was necessary to be neutral before starting or at various intervals. When
I apply all such phenomenon in real life. The neutral state can play a very
crucial and decisive role for an individual’s life. If you are socially active
and mingle with all, it requires you to be neutral at some point of time
especially when you try to act as a connecting link. But at times getting neutral can hurt people
you are attached to, if you share an intense relationship with them and they want
you to be on their side when they need someone to back them up and that very
moment you opt out, opt out to show any support or fight back, it really makes
a big difference in the relations and I have felt that, Well I have opted
myself out at various circumstances due to my inability I have mentioned it
before too. Some time I just could not satisfy my inner conscious. Putting
neutral at times indicates that you do not have enough courage to go though and
that’s why you opt out but sometimes getting neutral takes a hell of a courage to
stay stiff and does not allow any driving force to take you away.
For past five years the month of April
goes very crucial, as somewhere it hides what the situations going to be like
for next session. We get new classes, new students and sometimes new books too,
the state of mind remains between the sorrows of the left students and the
happiness of the new ones however this year the scenario changed a bit as I got
the opportunity to be a class teacher, I am quite excited to take up this role;
it will be a different kind of experience all together. My mind has already
started planning different ways out how can I make myself compatible to the
role of a class teacher and most importantly make my class better. However with
April come another game changing moment when It is decided whether to continue
or not with the job. I have been preparing myself for five years to continue
one way or the other But unlike other
times I don’t know why this time I feel like it’s the time once again to opt
out and move on, move and explore other areas as the life goes one dimensional
and at times doesn’t seem worthwhile, I don’t know what is the right time to
opt out but before I make a decision once again I want my master to take up the
final call and let me chose what is best for me and for others.
Adios!
