I don’t know why I am writing this cause I don’t like
sharing such stuff online but thought of writing because it may be only way to
get some sort of contentment. I don’t know what is wrong with my family but
every time when it seems like are going on track there comes a U-turn which
takes us back to the point which we left long time ago. I don’t have any idea
where it will end up like this. The history is too bitter to remember but the
present seems to just rotating around it. I don’t want to remember even a bit
of it but it seems that there is some curse that is following us. As I told I
don’t like to share mush about that I would just say instead of I getting deep
into the memory lane I am just seeking a way to get out of it.
Life is all about the choices we make and bear all the
consequences with it. Though I am not strong enough to make good choices all
the time sometimes due to lack of support, inexperience or sometimes because of
the evil staying inside all of us that provokes us to do wrong. Though I have
been with wrong people, made wrong choices but still I find myself at a very
good position to be able to lead a a good life and that is only because of my
saviour, my master who is always looking after me. And I have felt it many a
times that’s why my faith in him has become more and stronger. The only thing
that troubles me is the past that is haunting my family I don’t know what is
going wrong. I just cannot help it, all I could do is what I had done in past
letting things happen. Over the past few years my life has been very nice to me
in particular but still I just could not get away from the past. I have been
trying so hard but there are few things which seems to be totally out of
control and that is damn true. That’s life we have to learn to tackle with it
and I had decided if not others least I can do is to control myself. Irrespective
to the situations I chose to be happy no matter what it cost me. I don’t want
silly situations or shitty people to take over my inner peace. Every day when I
wake up I have two choices to make either to be sad about whatever is going
wrong or to be happy with whatever is
right and I choose to be happy that is the ultimate contentment I can get.
