Recalibration...

Before I talk about how things have gone to such an extent that I have to recalibrate myself, I would like to put focus on the actual meaning of the Recalibration, Its like re-adjusting your thoughts, your ideas, your expectations which have gone wrong with time and need to be repaired. or else you feel like setting everything to the zero level.
It is process of re-configuring our life plan.

When I look back and see my frame of mind I find that It was I who started being over demanding, It was I who started being over reactive, It was I who started over expecting.What I do or how I do It's ultimate measurement is not whether it is appropriate or not, It is that as long as I am able to justify myself with the various outcomes, I provoke myself to carry on.

The only regret, I have is that despite being so receptive so much flexible to the changes, Somehow this time I failed to justify myself, In spite of trying and trying so desperately I just could not prove my point , could not keep my own beliefs. and when I look at the responses I get in return I feel sick anyhow now I don’t think that I have enough courage to get stuck, I feel so helpless for that I feel so weak within to be able to continue in the same sequence and I think This is the best time to recalibrate my mind to be able to start all over.

During the life span of an individual has to recalibrate at certain point of time where it becomes necessary to take a break, to go through a refinery in order continue the journey. We can take in new ideas, and recalibrate our beliefs. We can take in new information and recalibrate our expectations. We don’t have to stay stuck. We don’t have to defend a way of thinking just because it made sense yesterday.

Rest is to the Almighty ...

The Insight Out…

Every one  here is supposed to be sent with a mission to be accomplished or a lesson to be learnt, and As I consider this, I feel that as my lesson for this lifetime is to understand the value of relations and the quality to maintain them till eternity. 

Something that I had always worked with relations is to check the depth of it in various unfavourable conditions, always tried to get the worst outcome of it and my weird logics have always played on with me, perhaps that's why I consider myself incompatible with people at times and I fail to reciprocate a more pleasant response to them.

         Once again, I found myself incapable of ending things well, incapable of holding on till the last moment,once again I checked my inability to maintain the same aura which was felt when things started to work, its something that I lacked whole my life, the inability to go through the transformation, the inability to hold on when it matters the most. It is the most essential thing for any individual to have, so that they may have good relations, good memories and most importantly a happy heart… but Its not happening for me, It   had never happened for me, I just could not hold it tight enough, I have to let it go like anything, I have to tell myself that’s it, There is nothing beyond….and that probably becomes an unmatched unfavorable end of what should not be Unleashed.

On going thought in mind is to prevent myself from loosing it anymore and to make relations that last long, to be fair with the people, not to let my weirdo to affect them and their lives, It seems my only aim to this lifetime. and for that I am trying too hard, Its just that I do not want to have a let go kind of thing anymore, although I try my best but I could only hold on my own nerves and the rest is what  we call  'The Destiny'.

Aloha.