Every one here is supposed to be sent with a mission to be
accomplished or a lesson to be learnt, and As I consider this, I feel that as my
lesson for this lifetime is to understand the value of relations and the quality
to maintain them till eternity.
Something that I had always worked with
relations is to check the depth of it in various unfavourable conditions, always
tried to get the worst outcome of it and my weird logics have always played on
with me, perhaps that's why I consider myself incompatible with people
at times and I fail to reciprocate a more pleasant response to them.
Once again, I found myself incapable of ending things well,
incapable of holding on till the last moment,once again I checked my inability
to maintain the same aura which was felt when things started to work, its
something that I lacked whole my life, the inability to go through the
transformation, the inability to hold on when it matters the most. It is the
most essential thing for any individual to have, so that they may have good
relations, good memories and most importantly a happy heart… but Its not
happening for me, It had never happened for me, I just could not hold it tight
enough, I have to let it go like anything, I have to tell myself that’s it,
There is nothing beyond….and that probably becomes an unmatched unfavorable end of what should not be Unleashed.
On going thought in mind is to prevent myself from loosing it anymore and to make relations that last long, to be fair with the people, not to let my weirdo to affect them and their lives,
It seems my only aim to this lifetime. and for that I am trying too hard, Its just that I do not want to have a let go
kind of thing anymore, although I try my best but I could only hold on my own
nerves and the rest is what we call 'The Destiny'.
Aloha.
